This is why I posted that post yesterday…
I barely have the energy to write about this.
Yesterday was a nice day.
I really nice, fun day.
Then it got ruined.
My parents, Shawn, and I went to this very small kinda family party at my aunt’s house. It was fun because me and Shawn were having awesome conversations, and just having fun.
Recently I’ve been way happier.
Happier then I’ve been in so long…..
After the party, my parents needed to go food shopping and on the way there they were being so fucking annoying.
So we really didn’t want to be with them so when we got there we went to the store just because I wanted a few things and then told my parents we were going to go to this one store next to where they were.
We went there and it was closed so we tried to get wifi (because neither of us have phones) After trying we went to the food store again, found my parents and told them we were gonna go to this other store. They said they were getting close to being done but we figured we would just go even for a little bit.
So we walked all the way over there and…… it was closed as well (it was a Sunday so every store closes early)
So we waited outside of the store for a bit then went to a bench close by and waited for probably 10 minutes. Then we walked around a bit (also keep in mind that I am still upset with my parents during this time and I was not in a great mood and Shawn was trying to cheer me up)
We probably walked around near this store for another 5 minutes then we went into this other store for probably, 3 minutes then went out because we wanted to check if my parents were finally there.
They weren’t so we went back to where the food store was and we saw the car.
We go in the car and we hear immediate yelling from my bitchy mom saying “Where were you guys????? Oh my gosh you guys are so selfish where were you??? wah wah wah” Saying the rudest things.
We were like “We were waiting for YOU GUYS for a long time. Where were YOU??”
They were so mad at us and didn’t hear our side of the story. Assuming that we were SO selfish because we didn’t wait right outside the door (Even though we were for most of the time)
Oh my gosh you don’t even understand how incredibly annoying and stupid my parents are.
My parents were not listening, saying rude things, CURSING at me, threatening to PUNCH me because I am now yelling at the top of my lungs because THEY WON’T LISTEN.
When this happens my brain freaks out because they are so fucking stupid and won’t listen and I literally start having a mental breakdown and scream super loud. I was literally freaking out and couldn’t fucking stand being in that damn car anymore that I said I wanted to get dropped on the side of the road and walk home.
After trying to get out of the car once. They legit stopped and let me and Shawn out of the car and we had to walk home.
Even though that’s what I wanted
I can’t believe they actually fucking did that.
Seriously I was crying almost the whole time we were walking.
Then after like, 50 minutes of walking my dad actually came back to pick us up with my sister.
I have such a shitty family.
Then my dad says that I am grounded FOR A MONTH because I was “disrespectful”
This is seriously mental health and they take none of it seriously.
I start freaking out because basically “grounded” really just means not seeing Shawn because my parents are assholes.
We get to my house and I’m freaking out and my dad is saying “If Shawn doesn’t leave right now I’m going to add a week to the month”
I’m freaking out
they don’t care
I’m legit on the ground crying and freaking out.
I’m saying things like I want to kill myself
they don’t care.
I say I’m going to kill myself if I can’t see Shawn for a month.
My mom eventually comes out because of my screaming and she didn’t even hear about this “being grounded for a month” thing.
My dad fucking sucks.
My mom is saying all of these HORRIBLE things about Shawn. That he is “toxic” and he “lies” which are so untrue. She doesn’t realize that SHE is the toxic one and she always lies. Seriously!
After me saying many times I will kill myself if I’m grounded for a month and this is no fucking joke. Seriously.
Literally, I was freaking out and saying I am going to kill myself and my brother starts laughing…….
They FINALLY make it only a week if Shawn’s leaves literally right that second and we didn’t even say goodbye.
I cried yesterday so much and I’m crying right now.
I am so unmotivated and I can’t believe my family.
Many other things were said by them that just really hurts.
I’m not even crying because I’m grounded it’s just because of how horrible they are.
I don’t feel like doing anything………..
not even eating.
I’m so done with this fucking family.
I need to move out.
My mental health……
all that I’ve worked for months……….
has just gone out the window………